The light

It is time for me to open up. For the last handle of years I have not been myself. I used to be outgoing, fearless, and wouldn't let a negative thing get the best of me. I am not even sure where it happened but it did and I have felt it everywhere.

Being pregnant with J and becoming a mom for the first time helped bring me back to my old spirit. Sadly though, it wasn't enough. You see from a young age I knew I wanted to be a mom. I was lucky enough to to grow up having my mom be a stay at home mom. I wanted to be like her and take care of my family. To be there when one of my kids leaves their lunch bag behind. To be able to surprise them at school. And most important, to not miss their firsts. 

Once I decided to sell Mary Kay, I thought I would just try to make some extra money. As I started going to more events I quickly realized that my calling wasn't only to be a mom but to lead others. I set my goals high to become a director. Meaning I would lead and empower others to reach their own goals. To help them earn what they need most in their life. 

Since I made this decision I have become a better person all around. I surround my self around other dedicated, God driven individuals and the inspiration just pours out! I am a happier person, I walk taller, stand straighter and most best of all...I don't give up. The old me would throw my hands up and say "I'm done. It's too hard." I have gained enough confidence to battle anything thrown my way. 

The people I am around are so supportive. Many other environments of my life is too focused on bringing each other down. Where as Mary Kay lifts one another up. Alongside the goals I have by tomorrow, I also have a new goal. To never stop trying. 

The push God has given me will open up so many doors for me. I can finally be at home with my son. I can do what I love. I can spend my days making people feel good about themselves. I can be a part of a company that respects me and rewards me for working hard. I can be able to not have a car payment. I can actually do activities with my son. I can get paid the amount I deserve for the hard work I do. I can go to empowering not events with my husband to help our relationship. I can see the good in others. Lastly, I can serve the Lord by working the life he wanted me too. 

For those of you who read this, thank you. Now you can truly feel where I am coming from. Why wouldn't I want others to feel this way?